When I was in
elementary school, I always tried to memorize the multiplication tables after
supper.
Day by day, I would go and on
memorizing after school.
Finally, it
was the day when I succeeded.
My parents
were full of smiles, and I was really proud of myself.
Since I was a
slow learner, being anxious, I would always complain to my parents.
My parents
would then just smile and pat my shoulders.
Looking at my
exam papers full of red marks just like a red shower, they would have been more
anxious than me thinking, "What if my child is way behind others?"
But they
would never push me to study, but waited until I did well by myself.
Thinking of
how my parents in my childhood, I believe my parents' life was an “endless
waiting.”
When I was in
my mother's womb, they waited for me to be born for a time of 10
months.
Even when I
first started to walk, when I first started to talk, they
waited.
I would cry
day and night and would have annoyed them, not wanting to be apart from them for
even a moment.
Though I got
sick frequently making them always feel anxious, all that they remembered about
me was a cute little baby toddling and saying "mommy or
daddy."
Though I was
slow and lacking compared to other children, they would think it's their entire
fault and felt sorry.
They would
always take care of me as an apple of their eyes, fed me the best food, and
always prayed for me to grow well.
Parents call
this kind of love, "the elders' love for the young," or "parental
love."
The source of
this love comes from the continuous time of waiting, and from the infinite
belief towards their child.
Our Heavenly Parents, who came down to this earth to find Their lost
children...
Our Heavenly Parents' love is much more than that.
“Can a mother forget the baby at her breast
and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will
not forget you! (Isa 49:15)”
Like how it
says, Heavenly Mother willingly came with lowly clothes of a sinner.
Heavenly
Parents' love is so deep that they would never give up though the children are
slow to realize. Their children found in the long time of waiting, for 6,000
years.
They would
always cover the children's sins, always give teachings full of love, guide them
to the best ways, and always praise them even for their small efforts.
Though They
would never have a day without worry or concern towards Their children, They
would earnestly pray for them all night long, always firmly believing that their
immature children would realize.
Through all
this, they would forget Their safety.
Thinking
about the heart of my Heavenly Parents, I look back, if I was truly a good
daughter.
Though Heavenly Father, Christ Ahnshanghong and Heavenly Mother is pleased seeing Their children uniting
with each other, rather embracing my brothers and sisters with love, didn't I
push them away from me just because they were different from me?
Though
Heavenly Father Christ Ahnshanghong and Heavenly Mother always waiting and endured, rather waiting
for my brothers and sisters to realize, didn't I just gave up on them?
Thinking
about my past, I can't lift up my head being so sorry and embarrassed to my
Heavenly Parents.
Though I said
I knew Their hearts, those were the days which I never really tried to put Their
words into actions.
I truly thank
Heavenly Father Christ Ahnshanhong and Heavenly Mother for loving me, and waiting for a long time
for this weak child to realize.
From now on,
I will love my brothers and sisters, even the parts they are lacking,
understand, help them, and walk the way of the gospel work which God is pleased
with.
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